You were the most amazing thing than could have ever happen in my life ... But you know what they say . It' happening so fast. You were the older one, I was the young girl getting to know the real world. All your "trip" were already done, and long way behind you. But I was just getting into it, without knowing it. Today, I know why you were telling me " your really starting to lose it " . I was having fun, it was all that matters. And I'm sorry for that. You were trying to build a future, our future... I was having fun and discovering everything around me. You were at the beginning my best-friend. Then a boy-friend. Maybe that was a mistake. Friends turns to boy-friends... But boy-friends don't return to best-friend... And if they do, it's never the same.
But I promise will all my heart, all that time, I was really in love with you. Damn, yes I was. And that's why Ithink you need to know the bottom of my heart. For once in my life I will show you everything... Just remember it.
Listen to me, because you know I don't say these types of things easily.
I'm sorry, yes I am. I'm sorry for every nights I kept you up because I needed to talk.
I'm sorry for every mean things I have said to you.
I'm sorry for all the time I was angry at you, only because you wanted to make me know the best things.
I'm sorry for every time I called you to come pick me up somewhere.
I'm sorry for the time I was addicted to pills, and I was so gone in my head, you had to take care of me.
I'm sorry for every night I let you wondering where I was, when I was partying somewhere.
I'm sorry for all the time I cried in your arm, when you should have been the one crying.
I'm sorry for all the moment I came to your place without even remembering my own name.
I'm sorry for everytime I hurted you, because it was the best thing I could do with myself.
I'm sorry for all the nights you were up in your room, and I was locked in the bathroom.
I'm sorry that I let you knew what I was doing in the bathroom.
I'm sorry that I coudn't be the perfect girl for you, I guess I needed to be myself and nothing else.
I'm sorry for the moment I acted like a selfish bitch.
I have to tell you " thank you " ... Thank you for all the moment you were with me even when I didn't want to. For everytime you came to pick me up , or drop me somewhere. Thank you for all the time you put me into a cold water bath to wake me after some hard time. Thank you for every kiss you have put on me , no matter if some time I didn't want to. Thank you just for having been there, you saved me. In every way you can think of it.
One day I came home ... & I wrote a story. A story about a time, a story about a place, a story about the people. But above all things, a story about love. That love was once so strong, I could feel myself break apart when he was missing ...Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months.And then I knew... You coudn't be a part of that story anymore, and I really think, it was the best for you, once again, I'm sorry. Don't worry for me, I'll be okay. You know it right ? you were always saying it. " Just remember, my love, everythings gonna be okay ! "